So I’m sitting here research online degrees for a Demand Studios article about best online degrees. And as I type this, Alyssa is currently sleeping next to me in our bed (Dan is at work right now). Normally she sleeps in her own bed, as she has done since we first moved her into her crib when she was about three months old. Alyssa is very independent, and to a certain extent not big on hugs, kisses and cuddles, so when she does express an interest in being near me, particularly during quieter moments, I find it hard to say no.
I know this is so cliche, but sometimes I wonder if I messed up somewhere along the line and it’s because of me that she’s so independent and not interested in being really close to us. But then I remind myself that she has been this way since birth. Breastfeeding, co-sleeping, sling wearing… it was all a struggle with her. Since she was born she has just wanted to do her own thing, on her own terms. And I’m okay with that. I respect her desire to be strong, independent and self-sufficient. I’m proud of her, probably in part because she reminds me of how I was as a child. But that doesn’t mean that there aren’t times when I wished she was a little cuddlier, just because it’s so easy and nice to express love and caring through hugs, kisses and general physical closeness.
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My name is Jenn, and I'm 27 years old. I'm happily married to my best friend and soulmate, Daniel. Together we have a six year old daughter named 
Name: Alyssa
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